On the road to Derzan's, I rode as slow as possible. At the same time, I thought much. I thought a lot of possibilities, many maybes....

Maybe one day he asks me to eat sth., and he hesitates to ask me that whether I would be his gf. Maybe I get good luck and pass the SIA. Maybe there's a rain of money. Then I'll buy many many things I want. Sweety dreams...

I think I now just need a shoulder to lean onto. I'm tired. I think about getting back from the People's Square on the bus. I felt so tired that I would very like to lean onto his shoulder. How wish he was my bf at that time, so that I can do that. Even if he is my father, things will be better then. The fact says NO. After all, I just need a shoulder.

SIA is coming. I think I've given it up with the expensive fee 180... I am what? And I am who? Who just permits me to waste money.... Maybe it's not time for me to give up I think. Will god help me this time? Please...

Just be myself....

I would like to be a person with principles.

Be myself....